The AWKWARDNESS of Self…

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I can almost Believe or Suspect that Everyone at some Point had Endured or

Experienced this Kind of Issue coming along your way,

That would be – Someone you Know making regular excuses in canceling your plans…

 

I was Listening to the Radio; if I can remember this one correctly,

They spoke about that People regularly cancel the plans they’d made.

Not only that, but these would be the Ones they said Yes to in the First place? ? ?

 

Most of these people at the End have something to do

OR by then their plans did Change,

Yet they didn’t tell you that they would be Busy or Possibly didn’t want to come along with your Arrangements made with you, to begin with.

 

I cannot say that I’ve met many People in this regard,

But I’ve seen a few people who I could easily do this.

 

What I have encountered,

When either You’re planning something or have an Idea about something,

There are ALWAYS those people OR Friends,

Wannabe Friends who would Jump at the Opportunity in getting IN on the Action,

But when Push comes to Shove,

They’re never there in the least bit!

 

Not ONLY is this One of the Single Most IRRITATING things I can Imagine myself,

BUT,

When you talk to them afterward – Making plans with them,

They would Act like there wasn’t a Thing wrong

OR

That they didn’t Drop the ball!

 

I must ADMIT,

At times when I was Really Tired and just needed to Unwind,

AS an Example;

When I was invited to the Family for a Lunch or Such,

I went, but didn’t really have the Energy for that,

BUT

As Life would teach you –

YOU Most of the Times NEED to have that Camaraderie with OTHERS,

Helping you to Blow-off some Steam!

 

Friends

Or

Family – it doesn’t really matter which one of the Two you take,

If you know that Friend who ALWAYS forfeit on their plans with you,

You might not want to Leave them Be…

They’ll Always fall into that Rhythm of keeping out of the Loop if You don’t keep at them,

Keeping them in the Circle!

 

Some People weren’t Born Socially Savvy,

Other’s have to Learn to do this,

SOME have to battle through this Issue…

ONE thing, We are People at some point who have to Experience that Connection,

Even if They don’t believe they need it!

 

As I said,

Friends

OR

Family –

One of the things I’ve learned over the Years as well;

Seeing this Exact Premise in a Film or Two,

Having Seen and Experienced this in parts of my Own life…

People who aren’t that Socially Programmed sometimes find it hard to Reach out in this Regard.

They become So emerged in their Own Lives, Living inside their Own Heads that they don’t even Miss what Life throws their way and Lives obliviously past it…

Such a pity!

 

When I was Retrenched,

Out of Work for SIX Months,

I found just how Deep I got Emerged into my Craft,

Having finished more work than I’d suspect;

YET through all of this,

I was also quite Cut off from those around me.

 

So,

Take it from me,

Calling a Friend,

Asking a Brother or Sister to come for a Visit,

That might Mean for more to them than THEY even can Imagine.

 

The saying goes;

Get out of your Head…

Head out of the Clouds…

 

That’s very easy to say,

It’s NOT one of the Easiest things for Most people to do,

Having Good company when there’s NO Pressure,

That would help Your

Friend,

Buddy,

Family Member.

 

Just keep in mind,

There’s be BIG difference between Socially Awkward People

AND someone just being Rude to you,
Blowing you Off because they cannot be Truthful

And Other’s a bit Unsure of themselves…

 

I do Hope that we can ALL see and recognize those who just waste your time

AND those who just need a Little Encouragement…

 

Be kind when you can be.

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Strangeness in a Strange World…

Strangeness In A Strange World

Makes me thing of the Book/Movie––The HOST.

 

            It was a few years ago, in fact some time before that; when I was at the Correctional Services’ Training Academy.

BRILLIANT…

            Well the fact was, we had Semi-Military training and were the last group going through this; seeing that things had changed dramatically.

The idea isn’t that I was there, but when I was;

I had an over active gland problem.

 

            This continued to the point that one of the guys I was at the Academy with, asked me a few questions.

One of which was, did I shower daily?

Mind you, I had no idea what was coming and then after it understood what he and the rest got to.

To say the least, after that I made a point of it; training as we did––shaving under my arms helped out with the sweat stench.

 

            Then later on at the Prison detail I was working at,

I spoke to my General House Doctor who referred me to a Specialist.

            Helping as they did, I underwent a operation and on my Spinal Column;

They cut nerves which were responsible for the Over-Active release of sweat from under my arms––all the way up to my hands.

 

            At school it was so bad, when I was at final exams, I couldn’t hold onto my pen while I wrote the last exams in Primary School…

I doubt that it made any kind of difference in my Concentration as I never really learned that much!

UNLIKE now, I devour info at a much greater Magnitude!

 

            STILL, with the Operation I had my Lungs and Heart on a machine.

I can tell you that it’s Pain you Cannot Imagine and Shouldn’t Endure.

            Now here’s the funny part,

After the operation, with the SHOCK of the operation on my body I suspect;

            SUDDENLY, I started to suffer from Very Short Stints of light-headedness.

The kind which you get when sitting for Long and getting up fast.

            This didn’t make too much sense to me and I knew that something in me had gone BONKER to an extreme extent!

 

            Little did I know, even later than that;

Once more I passed under the KNIFE A G A I N!!!

            This time it was for Heartburn.

AFTER swallowing that HORRIBLE camera, they found that not only do I have an Ineffective Stomach valve (trap-door) for lay-men terms…

            Not only this, but the membrane around the stomach had a tear in it as well.

SO, when I Wanted or Suspected it the least––I got a nasty case or Heartburn!

            The acid was so active that slowly but surely it affected my throat. Dissolving parts of the throat itself.

This time they did an almost less invasive procedure.

            It didn’t feel like something had crushed my lungs and I could get out of the Hospital sooner than before.

Still, in the X-rays later on I found that there were ‘Medical Staples’ in my stomach for life…

 

            AFTER this Operation,

Suddenly my body just OBJECTED at eating any Kind of Breakfast…

GO FIGURE!

 

            Hence,

I don’t drink a cup of Coffee in the mornings.

            Now then,

Only a few days ago, two weeks or so maybe––

I found that suddenly the Coffee I’m actually Addicted to,

STARTED to taste like Sewerage-Water…

            This to the point that I started to Investigate what was REALLY going on!

 

            At work when I drank the Coffee for the Morning,

It was okay and I was UTTERLY puzzled at how it could be…

I knew at work there was no filter and so,

Replacing the ENTIRE new Water-Purifier was my first order of business!

 

            That done,

The Coffee still tasted like I’d not finish a cup!

Now I looked at the Coffee itself,

Having THREE Different brands at the time;

THIS looked to be truly Impossible at all being the Reason for the Horrid taste.

 

            Next I Changed the Kettle,

That was after I’d Chemically cleaned it,

Suspecting that something in the Kettle was turning the water itself fowl…

 

            ON the Internet there wasn’t much more I could Research and nothing to be found.

Last but not the Least,

At work they used Milk in the Coffee and SO;

At HOME in use Coffee-Creamer.

            I bought a smaller pack of another brand and TESTED this in a cup as well…

 

To My Great Big Surprise,

I’d become Allergic or Saturated to the Taste of Creamer in the Coffee.

A day or two back I once more Made another Cup of Coffee with the Creamer I still have…

THE smell still remains…

 

Now this makes me wonder,

How did this come about?

When I underwent the two Operations, things went Bonkers right at the Get-Go…

 

            After THOSE,

I had two Back-Operations,

If not then I’d be wheelchair bound;

NOW, would this last reaction be from one of the Operation and if so––

WHAT could the possibility be that there’s another WEIRD thing that will Transpire for me…

 

Seriously, these things just happen with me Having to Undergo some Medical Procedure,

THEN what to say about those people either Using Drugs and/or Using Steroids for training or so…

 

I seriously HOPE nothing else will POP it’s Ugly head out!