THIS, remind me of the two Films –
The Ghosts of Christmas (Charles Dickens)
Ghosts of Girlfriends Past (Matthew McConaughey)
Had me in some kind of a Similar position.
Ironically at that,
There are Two women by now that I’ve seen if you can say that,
At an interval far too close, making me believe this isn’t such a Coincidence,
For me NOT to wonder about this.
Listening on the Radio sometime before this started,
The Presenter asked about someone they’d known OR anyone the listeners knew,
Having not seen them in such a long time.
As curious as I was at this,
I did a Search on Google,
And very Surprised I saw the Results and the Research,
This first woman was Ironically on some Part of Social Media.
The reason I was somewhat shocked,
In the years before, possibly between 8 and 10 so far,
I never suspected Her to care much for opening any such Accounts,
Remembering this is what she told me, as a matter of Fact.
As we Most of the times do,
We get rid of Everything of that Person when we break the Connection
AND this was what I had done as well – this, while we weren’t even Serious in the least.
Still, the basic Idea was the same.
Then, when I ran the Search,
I saw the result and saw a Picture of her of at least Two Years before;
Closer to what she’s looking like now.
This I would say is Mostly also why there are Reunions,
People, in General, want to SEE and or Know what’s more or less been happening with those they’d like to keep tabs on.
For me, seeing this Image and concluding what information I was able to gather from the Two Profiles I had seen – I could make a few conclusions about her.
NOT in the Least bit sure At all how Closer or VERY Far from the truth…
So here comes Yet another Shocking Insight,
No matter HOW much we Hope, Believe and or Think;
That we’re so Brilliant – ONLY when you walk that Mile in Their shoes,
Would you and do you Know what it’s like to be them!
After all of this, there’s NO way that I can Ever believe my Conclusions are Correct no matter how many times in the Past I had been correct with them.
The ONLY thing that I’m 100% sure – her Expression in the Picture was a Sad one,
And this is something I thought would be possible.
Something I dreaded and HOPED would never happen,
But, what we Want for Others doesn’t always happen to them.
A Sad truth of life.
Even if we’re NOT personally involved with Someone We shared some time with,
You still do not Want anything Terrible for them or See that Life did not turn out that Well for them – Seeing that if this was what Happened to them, something You suspected could be,
There’s a Very Good Chance that you’d be in the Same boat with them,
If you’d stuck around…
Now I suspect that Life did Knock her around far more than I wanted.
Yet – You leave when you don’t have any Other Choice AND suspect You could have been Correct seeing them after all of this time had passed by.
Now for the Second of the Ladies,
Seeing her Mother more Often than I want to,
KNOWING this Lady smokes like a Chimney…
Myself Absolutely HATE Cigarette Smoke…
Thus, when I Least expected it,
I saw the Second Woman walking toward me, at the Apartment,
Walking to the Main Large garbage-bin,
Walking down the stairs behind her a bit later,
Either She had picked-up her Mother’s bad Habit of smoking
OR Her mother smokes so Constantly that no one would Survive there!
There’s no Answer to this Conclusion,
Except for the reaction from her,
Not in the least saying I’d have Dated her OR she might have been interested in me,
But the Lack of Communication from her side,
Leaves me to believe that some Ships sail for a Reason.
You, ME, All of Us at some Point Grasp onto the Idea of keeping that Person in our Lives when there’s Possibly NO factual Reason that this would Work out correctly.
Yet – as the saying goes;
If you let them go and they come back to you,
They were Yours to being with…
Just remember to Leave them Be when they Never come back to you.
We as a People don’t like to Lose,
BUT – take this Little Conclusion into account,
If they’re Never supposed to be Yours and You keep on Pushing,
How many Other Chances will then Slip through your Fingers,
Before You could Really find the One who is Really supposed to be Yours?
No matter what the Smart people say,
Letting go of Anyone at any Point in time for Whatever reason that may be,
I suspect it’s NOT in our Human Genetic Code to let Anyone go which You’d connected Deeply with.
Even worse than that – Accepting Life as it comes while we’re getting Over that person,
Living as You do or Have to,
Never such an Easy feat to pull off.
The Silver Lining here,
If you’re Willing and Open,
There will Always be a Chance at another Relationship,
ONE which is Yours to have and One which could Chance your life forever…
Just be Mindful of the Chance which could Present itself.
The Girl in the Pic isn’t one of the Two I wrote about, it Just Looked Nice.